The look of love.
Change is constant. Whether it's foregoing your standard everything bagel for a poppyseed, accepting or rejecting a promotion, starting or ending a relationship, we are always changing. Newly married, and loving it, I do find myself at a brand spankin' new crossroads. An exciting fork in the road. So I stand here with open arms, and I shout to the big ole heavens: CHALLENGE ACCEPTED, MOTHERFUCKER.
I mean yes, that's aggressive, but it's how I feel. I feel that I have a wonderful new opportunity for reinvention. I have the ability to pinpoint certain aspects of my life that I want to change, and as we know, the only person capable of making those changes is me.
So the following are components I am addressing most particularly in terms of my journey to personal reinvention, to help guide me to my "new normal." Now, disclaimer time. I do not know what will come of any of this, but let's explore it together, shall we?
I will try to document my tango with change over the next few months, letting y'all know what's doing and what's not, what strategies are successful and what aren't, and y'know, we'll just see how things go.
1. My Job. Okay, so I think we've pretty much established by now that I am a writer-actor-entertainment-oriented-person, but in terms of making my entire living doing that, I'm not quite there yet, which is FINE, but I do plan to get there. Sooner rather than later.
Prior to my wedding, I quit my day job in customer service, and accepted a short-term gig on the Broadway. Now, upon coming back from my honeymoon, I had a mild panic attack, because I was DUH, unemployed. However, I chose not to sit in panic for too long, and instead I got in touch with my fantastic headhunter. He specializes in headhunting for entertainment companies, and turns out! He needs someone to come in part-time, and assist him in some interviewing, recruiting, etc. Lucky me, because it's looking like I get to be that someone.
My headhunter and I decided together that in order for me to have enough flexibility to pursue my writing full-force, part-time work, random gigging and temping is my best money making approach for the time being. So now that I have one part-time job in the bag, I need a second. I have a few leads, but only one real requirement, it must be low stress and relatively low stakes. After being at a high stress job for almost three years, I need a more relaxed, fun, and positive day-to-day. A day-to-day that fills me up with a zest for life and inspires me to keep trucking towards my long-term professional goals as opposed to draining me of any juicy, creative energy.
I'll keep you posted on how juggling two part-time jobs plus writing goes (once I secure that second gig that is). I know I will be making less money, but I'm pretty confident that I will be much more productive, and simply happier. Sometimes a temporary decrease in pay equals a general increase in quality of life. That's what I'm aiming for at least.
2. My Art. I have a couple of projects in the can that I feel pretty stoked about, but all of them are in different places, and require different tactics. So here are my tiny vows per project.
- I vow to record some songs. Not of me singing (obviously that would be painful for everyone), but I plan to get into the studio and make 1-2 or possibly 3 tracks that are scoring this film Joey and I are working on. I also vow to attempt to start a fundraising strategy for said film as well. Possibly meet some people in film who know more than me, because I don't know very much, and would like to learn all the things.
- I vow to work with Joey and friends to put All the Kids up again this year in some capacity. Whether it's a reading, workshop, production, who knows? But this musical ain't dead yet!
- I vow to commit to writing this fiction piece I've started working on. It terrifies me. Fiction, like a novel, like what? But I believe in scaring yourself with art, so I'm going to gingerly type away at it.
- I vow to actually submit myself to some acting gigs, because I genuinely believe it would make me happy to act again in some way, shape or form.
Okay, so let's see. I mean I vowed 'em on social media, so I'll be lookin' real lame if I don't at least try to make this happen. Oh, also I vow to read more! Because reading is good for you, like vegetables, it opens your mind and feeds your soul, and all that stuff, so I'm going to read more! YAY!
3. My Fitness. Okay, so usually for me, running is like a hard pass. Hard pass, guys. However, I am going to try and start running again. I mean I used to play soccer in middle school, I was a "shoot-out champion," so...like I can run, I can do this. Even if it's just five minutes a day, I will run more. I will also try to eat more things like kale and quinoa, not because they're like so totally in right now, but because I think I need to be eating more brain food. I also need to start attempting to stretch, because I have the flexibility of a crotchety 85 year-old man named Harold.
4. My Marriage. I am SO EXCITED to be married! So far it's pretty much the best thing EVER! I love my husband, I love that I get to say "my husband" and he gets to say "my wife." Like the other day, we were buying a car, and he goes, "Let me just talk it over with my wife," MY WIFE! Bah, just adult-ing all over the place, but in all seriousness, I plan to really enjoy being a newlywed. I'm told you never get these first few years of marriage back (the ones prior to baby invasion), and I just want us to bask in each other, love each other, communicate, and have tons of fun adventures. This bullet is obviously less about reinvention, and more a promise to enjoy my role as a wife, which is ultimately part of my "new normal."
5. My Attitude. In this upcoming chapter of my life, I would like to be more joyful, encouraged, confident, and patient. Perhaps this is a result of reading The Secret a number of times before my wedding, but I do believe in the power of positive thinking, of affirming that good things will come if you proclaim they will.
If you can imagine it, you can achieve it. If you can dream it, you can become it. - William Arthur Ward.
So, like I said, challenge accepted. Stay tuned. Also, you should read more too.